SPOOKY!!!

In honor of the Halloween season, I want to share with you one of the most frightening aspects of my life. Its called sleep paralysis. If you are unaware of this condition, let me provide you with some background (In a very nonclinical way of course). Its a sleeping disorder where your body falls asleep before your brain does. Im not sure of the official cause of it, im just enplaning from experience. You can't move a muscle in your body, you can't talk, blink, nothing. However, you are fully conscious. The only way to break it, is through deep concentration, usually into trying to move a limb or talk. Otherwise it can last for great periods of time. I used to get it quite often, but now I know how to avoid it from happening. However, it still happens from time to time.

This is something that I have had constant experiences with. I get it if i sleep flat on my back, or if i sleep in certain beds. I used to have horrible experiences with it. But over the years i have learn how to control it, and break it before it goes into a cycle. What normally happens, is that i will wake up out of a very light sleep. Almost to the point where i dont ever realize that im sleeping yet. Then i find that my body is completely paralyzed. I used to just wait for it to run its course, then fall back asleep immediately. But then it would happen again moments later, and i would do the same thing, try and break it and fall back asleep. Normally i am so tired, that my body and brain go right back to sleep before i have a chance to react and readjust my body. At this point, it has gone into a cycle, and i start having dreams where i am having sleep paralysis. I would break it, and then wake up to find my body paralyzed. It happens over and over again. Its one of the most frightening things i have ever experienced. It takes so much concentration to break out of, and when you finally do, the idea of going back to bed scares the shit out of you.

There has also been many times when i have felt a horrible pressure on my chest, like someone is holding me down. I don't know if its just my mind fucking with me, but i can usually feel the blankets getting pulled off me, and this really cold air brushing against my face. Its such a violating experience, and i dont know how to explain it. Situations like this usually last about a minute or two, but it feels like an hour. At the time it happens, you can almost swear that its something super natural. Like a ghost or something. This doesn't happen nearly as often as it did, and i am very thankful for that.

I remember the first time i ever had it. I was about 12 years old, and had no idea what was going on. I remembered trying to scream for help, but couldn't because my entire body was paralyzed. It lasted about 5 minutes, but it seemed like an eternity. It wasn't till years later when i discovered that it was a sleep disorder and other people had experienced the same thing.

Its also funny that people who claim to have been abducted by aliens experience sleep paralysis right before it happens. I know thats bullshit, but you can't help it from flowing through your mind when you is having a real bad case of it.

I hope everyone enjoys this as much as I did

NEW PHONE!

Thats right boys and girls, I finally got a new phone. No more screaming into my phone to have the person on the other end hear whispers. And as much as I enjoyed having a pink phone, its nice to have one that I can actually use in public without trying to cover it up. I hope this one actually lasts me more than 6 months, unlike my previous phones.

Text me so i can just save your number in it, rather than me manually adding 110 phone numbers.

Good Luck in Hollywood, Us Ugly Kids Will Stay Right Here

Mike and Nate, I hate you for being there and not enjoying it.

Alright, so I have finally decided to check out Hardstance. I had heard the name tossed around a few times, but didnt know to much about them. I was also told that Zach De La Rocha played guitar for them, before he sang in Inside out. So I decided to check em out. I did, and Im totally blown away. I'm not usually a fan of 80's hardcore aside from the essentials (YOT, GB, COS, Judge, etc) and I had heard so many second rate bands to really turn me off the era. But This is totally blowing me away. Totally before its time, and kind of reminding me of In Stride at points, but with that youth crew spirit alive and well. Do yourself a favour and check this out if you havent already done so.

http://www.mediafire.com/?cktzvz4l7gm

This is one of the things (besides hardcore) that remains constantly awesome in my life. Nothing cheers me up more, then pouring myself a big glass of milk, and cuddling up with Benson and Stabler. Im so happy I got into this show so late, Its like I have an infinite amount of episodes to watch.

Finally an update

Alright, so I have 40 minutes before i need to get to school, so i figured i would drop an update. Alright, so i figure i will let yall know whats going on with me. I'm currently back in school, trying to complete my criminal justice degree. So far, its been hard trying to get back into the grove of things. I have already had an exam and paper due. It took me a while to get cracking on both, but i finally got around to it. I got my paper back yesterday, and it was a C+. I'm pretty bummed about that. I'm a B+ student, and don't expect to get anything less than that. However, it was the first paper i have written in over two years, So I guess its not to bad considering. I also wasn't to confident while writing it. So next time, i will just need to organize better and focus on structure, because that's where i lost the majority of my marks. There wasn't anything wrong with the content. I guess i will just learn from this experience. I have also been trying to catch up on my readings. I used to leave them all til exam time, but that doesn't seem to be working this far into the game.

Alright, so i will stop boring you with school and move onto something a tad bit more exciting. On Our Side is playing our last show on Saturday night. The end of an era. It wasn't a very tight or motivated era, but an era non the least. I'm happy to be putting things to an end. The bands had definitely ran its course, and things went over far better than I ever expected, which is pretty awesome. I definitely won't miss playing those songs, but i will miss being in a band. I really enjoyed having a voice, and creating something with some of my best friends. Ever since I was a kid, i dreamed of being in a band. It was something that I never thought would come to be reality. And even though we weren't the best band, I wouldn't trade those experiences for anything else in the world. For instance, all the times we played with our bros Sleeping Tigers and Scared stiff. These shows were always absolutely ridiculous. It didn't matter how many people paid at the door, we all supported each other and that's all that mattered. Those shows will always be my best memories of on our side. Also, all the times we played in Fargo, those shows were always ridiculous. Our second show ever was in Fargo with This is well, Its pretty ridiculous to even think about that. And its all thanks to our bros in Any Day, and our bros in prison Barber production. Some of the best friends I have met through hardcore. Nothing but love for those dudes. All and all, i wish we could have done more as a band. I really thought we would have gotten off our asses and recorded something over the 19 months we were a band, but i guess that's how it goes. At least we played a ridiculous amount of shows, and made t-shirts. I guess that's something to be proud of. In closing I would like to thank everyone who gave a shit about on our side. Any one who gave us a show, moshed, took the time to learn the words to our songs, and even watched us. It means the world, and has created a life time of memories for me. I love you all.

If you care, This is the info regarding our last show

OCTOBER 4th.

HORIZONS - http://www.myspace.com/horizonshc (MEMBERS OF DAGGERMOUTH)

WITHDRAWAL - THIS BAND CLEARLY NEEDS NO INTRODUCTION

ON OUR SIDE - LAST SHOW EVER

ILL INTENT - http://www.myspace.com/illintent206 (MEMBERS OF "THE ANSWER" I DO BELIEVE)

LIFE IN HAND - http://www.myspace.com/lifeinhandhc (MEMBERS OF REGINA)

The show is officially at the spot under the fix.

7 BUCKS AT THE DOOR. ALL AGES

The next day is something that I am real excited for. Bane and outbreak in Fargo. Not only that, but the show is at the red raven. If you have never been there, its a small room in the back of a coffee shop. The stage is only about 6 inches off the ground. I would say capacity for the place to be around 100. Its going to be insanity. I didn't think i would even get to see Bane again, let alone seeing them in a setting like this. I can't remember that last time i was this stoked for a show. It totally brings me back to my early days of hardcore, when the night before a show was like trying to get to sleep on Christmas eve. I have missed that feeling. I can only imagine the mayhem that will ensue at this show.

Alright, i guess i will go now. Hopefully its not another six months before i update this thing again. Thanks for reading.